Journal Entry # 35

I’m on a psychedelic high; rupturing any ideas that will cause me my demise.

Ruining any moment associated with doubt; expressing it louder than a shout – I hope you understand what I am talking about.

I feel I express entirely too much; I want to come out of that habit, because they’re other ways to pick myself up.

As I move forward down this road, I feel in my heart that I’m actually going somewhere; from my view it’s here or there, so I’m told.

Heat and moisture can either make clouds or mold – depending on circumstance you either fly to the sky or drive down a road.

I’m struggling to make this make sense! I’m frazzled with scaling walls, and hopping every fence!

I’m being charged a price that wasn’t my expense….

Journal Entry # 32 and 33

Rinse and Repeat*

Numb-Err 32*

Discovering who I am has displayed many leveled difficulties.

Dwelling in places I shouldn’t have been, but it’s my fault, you see.

Taking a stand for what is right, and not a great good.

If people would just mind their own, they would understand why I took a chance and stood.

This is what I’ve I learned so far; now I need to move on to healing my next scar…

Number 33*

Each day, I reflect in the morning; deafening myself from outside noise.

I’m in wanderlust, and the route is revealing many reasons I am glowing; God! I’m doing my best to not to find anything else to fill this void.

I am quite complex; My make-up is pleasant, but the colours are blue.

I am the one to be next; the cover of my book isn’t half of what I can do.

Journal Entry # 31

Mistake to a Lesson*

Eating an unforgettable fruit

Yearning to understand Eve’s point of view

I’ve dived into something that was once a promise

I’m enduring many emotions, yet I’m at my calmest

Realizing that I do these things to test the strength I heed

I’m taking control of this vice without intentions of deceit

Proving to myself that I know when to take action

Being stern, breaking down each obstacle by a fraction

I call myself enhancing the powers I already possess

I just don’t those around me to extend any extra stress

Why isn’t there another way to celebrate

My option is a funeral or a birthday cake – for Christ’ sake

One glance, digesting the fruit of an unknown

And I just disappear – wanting to find somewhere to call home

Journal Entry # 29*

I am filled with words even when I feel like my mind went blank – I immediately observe. Then think.

My technique has a couple holes; still, God knows my heart and soul.

Inspired by the little things [it’s where the signs are] and I’m taking it in.

Clutching the pure joy it brings; as so, I grasp the many blessing of its memory.

Slowly healing each scar; I’m confident that I don’t have that far.

Understanding her worth is very important…

Journal Entry # 26*

What is my deal? I’m providing all good energy, yet, to others, the price of it is a steal!

Am I too nice, too lenient? Do you think it’s fair, even though I’m obedient?

Give me a moment – I’m talking to myself; you know what they say, “that’s not good for your health.”

Well, what I do? Why is there silence, will the answers I receive from my questions be of any use?

I can’t stress it enough! We are here to be used for good works; one shouldn’t abuse, because one is a jerk.

Going outside of the lines isn’t a feature I hold, and it’s a habit I choose not to break.

I’m opposed to repeating any of my mistakes.

It’s intriguing to watch one actually have the guts; it devours my stomach with disgust.

I can’t stress these things enough!

Being of use in good works was the only thing expected of us.

Continue to be useful, not useless; don’t stand in the way of another’s shot – be humble, your character is all you got!

Shower me with mercy so that grace flow when I speak…


Journal Entry # 24

I’m finally free to vocalize what I feel without fear; recounting my story with genuine, listening ears.

Unfolding every raw inequity; being honest in every flaw and complexity.

Finally! I’m on a fresh path placed by my Lord, thankfully! I’m releasing all sorrow in order to move forward peacefully.

You get what you put out; for me, that’ll never be doubt!

“Don’t change the intention; change how to fulfill the intention…”

Sarah Jakes-Roberts

Jordan Entry 23*

I want to do so many things that I get frustrated with the rate of my success; my actions are synonymous with the goals I set my mind on, yet every step I make feels disorganized, just a complete mess!

Beyond that, I still strive to pay closer attention to the lessons, and not the mistakes; recognizing that the blessing in it is because of my faith.

I dig deep to channel the visions I have from my point of view; looking for the words to describe my peculiarity, because my colours are of a different hue.

Being content in this space; Embracing the peace like it’s the last breath I can take – hoping to grow. Allowing my faith to break my fall whenever failure shows.

I looked into the mirror, and I demand integrity; I am completely fine with who I’m developing into. At this moment, I’ve finally had clarity.

Journal Entry # 21


Feeling my spine bend with chills as my face swell with a unique smile; I’m flustered, because the sensation is indescribable – it’s been this way for a while.

It’s time for the big war, particularly a war that doesn’t keep score; do anyone believe in anything anymore?

My only mission has been to succeed, all while honoring the things that created me, and believe in; winning the battle without having to wear my soul thin.

I chose this path for myself, because other creativity to me feels intimidating; I can make sunlight to be bright, not dark, and in my days I’ve seen those very hearts. I often decide to stray from false acts of militating.

Journal Entry # 20

2 Timothy 3:16-17

I am authoring today, there are things I have in my heart, I want to say; I want to validly deliver these terms, in a certain way… So down below will express what I truly mean, in the way that I pray…

“All Scripture is inspired by God, and is useful to teach us what is true and what make us realize what is wrong in our lives. It corrects us when we are wrong and teach us to do what is right. God uses it to prepare and equip his people to do every good work.”

I am soaking up many experiences I’ve had in yesteryear; seeing later on that I’ve been surrounded by people whose intent was hurt me as a whole – it’s been made very clear.

I present myself with necessary wisdom – marking the times where I win some and lose some; I’m comprehending that life is never going to stop throwing stones, it’s really up to us to focus, and stay in the proper zones.

Managing my inner-anger has had a plethora obstacles I have to go through, and as simple as it signs, there are things I know will be hard to do.

Plodding through my journey, so that I don’t miss anything; I know there’s a finish line close to this chapter, and it’s approaching faster than next spring…

Journal Entry # 18 and 19


listening to a tune played by a special bird, it has a specific sound; I’m not sure if I’m the only who heard too, I just know I want hear it everyday now.

I’m seeing the small things others may overlook; life will really throw things at you, that you won’t find in any book.

face value defines this moment; observations show that only faith gives me strength to even think of hoping.

I’m being as honest as I can, I truly hope its showing.


am I being repetitive because I express my main goal in different way? Or am I working it out to find a solution within this pain; I’m no longer approaching my affairs the same – my behavior is slowly becoming tamed.

I benefit from my “will” to be in control; I’ll rather be self taught, than to sell my soul… My journey is filled with many elements; beyond the naked eye, there’re blessings and accomplishments that only I can explain when it comes to its developments…