Sticking to my story, enjoying who I am; give them the shine and not the glory; I’m going always make a stand! Releasing these impurities, focusing more on improvement; looking only for spiritual security, no man I know is innocent. I’d rather be looked after by perfection; guarded – knowing it’ll be unconditional, with no exceptions…
Why do we need forever; when life only occurs in seasons. why do we long for forever; when life never gave us that reason. mentally things can be permanent; but never forever. just like sunshine and rain, it’ll always be a change in weather. eternity was our only promise; a promise for our afterlife. whether it’s heaven or hell, well that’s your choice, your sacrifice. Though, we work hard to live better; things [like the enemy] can tempt our decisions beyond measure. so why forever; when you can have right now. though the covenant is til’ death; even death is an expiration, and that’s something you can’t disavow. not to be dark or grim; the thought of forever is beautiful, but simply isn’t the reality in the end….
“Lucid | Glowing | Radiant”
a warmth of feeling or emotion/ that brightness in my warmth color/ you can’t tell me I wasn’t chosen/ there’s only one me, there isn’t another/ taking a break from my routine/ I’m looking for a new view; different scene/ I’m a beautiful rare psyche/ uncloaked, bare and exposed/ Showing, always the best side of me/ knowing people, they’ll look for a gag/ you’ll never see me down, I’m opposed/ I be damned if this world discern the privilege to see me sad/ every word that comes out of my mouth; explains what a condescend mind looks like/ thanks to my Lord Savior; that’s a reason to be proud/ what a blessing to have the Holy Spirit around/ therapeutic kind of vibe/ using my shuffle; taking my time/ just saying what’s real/ putting everything down I feel/ this is all mine and it’s authentic/ I’m always being an artist – painting the picture/ enjoying the energy of this flow/ really being me and using what I know/ to me, it may feel a little simple/ but to others, it can be shocking at what my mind can do – this is commendable/ everything I know is expendable/ if I don’t apply it, well it would be useless doo/ passionate in every moment in life/ even when its hard going through all this strife/ it’s time to stop running and fight/ continue to pray and have faith in my heart with all my might/
In the dawn, life is always a beginning..without no time limit in the end..because when you’re prepared for the morning,life will humble itself to your calling…of whatever needed to be perfected,your life is the morning, it’s an attachment,of what you can fix that may be flawed.a mistake that can be there to be solved,especially, there is room for growth always.never give up, the dark will always turn day.don’t allow clouds of ignorance to rain on your dream,for morning is what we look to after we sleep.there will be a moment where dusk will approach,but dawn will arise again, with each hand clock stroke.so much to do, so little time to do it, is what they say,if you start in the morning though, it’ll get done successfully.going in to the first things you do, awaken, stretch, use the loo.you shower, brush your teeth, and then take the kids to school.but afterwards, what are the new things there to do?being as though, the morning lasts, exactly 12 hours,we only spend really allow 8 to be in our power.there’s so much to do, in my opinion,you just have to learn what things should carry dominion.so that time could’ve been spent with something structured,instead of non-sense that can make minds rupture.Start your meditation this morning, you’ve learned things new,bring your whole life into the moment, then begin your truth.Something about the morning view….
sometimes I question my very existence; is there more to being optimistic? questioning my life choices and the things I doubt; ignoring extra whispers that may speak aloud. yet, refusing to fail at winning; I want to fail at losing. sounds weird actually saying; until I show you what I mean by proving it. challenged by many that don’t understand my placement; learning to ignore that before becoming complacent. today is today, all that I can deal with; consuming life at once is a myth. I strive for a better me, taking it once a time; beginning each day with intent to expose my prime! exploring myself as a journey of adventure; turning downfalls into stepping stone to a bigger picture. I’m taking initiative to become broad; learning my mistakes, by beating the odds.
Never put your confidence into people; My response cannot be to people.
no money in my accounts, but I’m not broke; I am rich in faith, determined to be happy, even when it hurts the most! Thriving my way through many trials, running so long, that it feels like many miles… To find myself, and my soul, the things that gives me bliss, and joy! I cry for hours and can’t tell you why – I’m begging for a breakthrough, so confused that sometimes, I lash out too! Triggered by everything; small things is what hurts me – and when it propagate its becomes an immense challenge, something meaninglessly imaginable…
My daydreams often involve lights and tunnels toward my future; on a short journey to get closer to what’s peculiar.. In my happy place with rainbows and unicorns; hearing beautiful music played by beautiful horns… I am imagining my success in whatever makes me complete; you may think this is weird, but this is how I see. [Daydreaming] is like a visual manifestation of what will be my reality!
Reversing the atmosphere; renewing what comes near, because Godly things will appear.. changing the energy; taking nothing personal.. Completing all challenges; facing them head on. Stripping those of malice, still remaining strong! Creating something condensed; so when it’s time to inflate, the victory will make sense! This is always great! Concluding a plan; there will always be wins… taking the losses like they’re grand; it teaches the what nots of sins…
Pull the Lever!
What is love? No one will truly know, to be honest. It’s something only the heart can comprehend, to tell you when it’s a go, and that’s best in the end. Love is easy, and hard when times can get rough; being as it may not all happy endings began without it first being rough. Saying whatever comes to mind because that first thought is definitely the truth – making you feel the way I do could, blow off a roof! Oh please, I say to myself over and over again, because all I want is to be more to you than just a friend. Because he is my lover too ….
Lead in your Soul, so your Mind and Spirit can follow…
Controlling Her Dream//
The only thing you control is which button you would like to click first, you see; I am an abundance of energy, that ignites any sign of darkness to light – either way, in some way I will touch your life ….
Don’t let no one stop it/Be your best, outstanding/Allow the seeds to be fruits/It’ll prosper into good use….
Not really looking for the words; more like just something to say. I wont allow my energy to be the worst; but expressive in how I truly feel everyday. Especially after this new world; I’m faced with living without my girl. Yeah it hurts, but she was in much pain; I could’ve never been selfish enough to make her stay. This woman was a true Shunamite; faithful without any doubts, but with all faith, it was her biggest might! Beautiful inside, and out; pure in spirit, heart, and flesh! what a beatific gift from the Lord; and all know that even with our mistakes, He’s still there in our mess. That was something that she strongly stressed… Now that I see these things, I’m at peace; She’s getting ready to celebrate her renewed birth. I wish I could see such an amazing thing, but for now I’ll, honor you here on Earth! I Love You Grandma, Very much!!
~Ki Wi [Europa]
Today, I held my grandmother for the last time; I’m truly broken up. Still, it is ok, that was the sign. She was a legend, with an angelic attitude; and the way she loved was in multitudes! Though, she was tough, she was also a true queen; she loved me even when my character could be unclean. The way she kept it straight, you would’ve thought she was mean [lol]. she was so comforting you would’ve thought she was a heavenly safe; it sucks because I would’ve needed her right now in this mental state…. It is well though..
I will learn my purpose; so that I can fulfill my reasonable service..
~ Ki Wi [Europa]
Surely I will cause breathe to enter you, and you shall live.”
Hearing her voice was so soothing and comforting, I love her so much! She is covered by the blood and it was already written that she’ll be healed; everything that need to know is manifesting in good works of the Lord! I have faith that this season will not last. I get so emotional about them, I’m deeply grateful to have been blessed with such amazing elders that I can have the honor in saying that these are my parents! Taught all the good things , smart things I needed to be the woman I am today! Jesus! This is tough.
Every time I think I’m having a moment of writer’s block, immediately, I put something down. There’s a moment where I feel like writing, other times, typing; what I feel’s therapeutic for me in that moment. Just expressing myself as much as I can, I’m tired of clutter – a disorganized mind cannot prosper. I need order, this is the best thing for me I want my mind to be damn near empty, so that I can leave ample space with sensible things that I should be focused on. Instead of anguish and pain, worry and anxiety; it’s exhausting, very exhausting! All I really want is a day of freedom from the day to day annoyances or mental harassment. I’m focused on living and not existing amongst ignorant, judgmental human beings, when we all could be loving each other regardless of what your population group is. If I could renew the world, I would bring back the respect the world should have towards our elders, and no social media. Just to name a few at that, I want the values women had for themselves, when just being a smart, natural, and beautiful queen was enough…
This is Significant! No Matter How it Looks – It’s Significant!
Feeling as if I’m at the beginning of my journey, and extremely vulnerable; I am very nervous, yet, courageously excited. I am sharing the most important thing to me, and that’s my poetry. Sharing it with the world is just an added comfort, knowing that there’s an audience out there who will understand my purpose, and will support me no matter what!
As I go on, you will undoubtedly learn who Europa is, and then they’ll be times where you’ll allow Kiwi in to comprehend the way she sees the world as well. This is me, my legacy, my legend, my story. Your opinions, advice, even criticism, will very much cloud this space, and that’s ok. This is what I am asking for, and I am ready!
I write like I may forget what I have to say; as if there’s not enough time in the day! Imaginative and liberal in my words – some are appeasing, others are absurd. But it’s my freedom of speech; you don’t know what I may teach… whether its an opinion or fact; it’s my choice to say this or that!
It’s time to let my fears go, so that my purpose in life can grow!
The way I communicate has always mathematical; timing is everything, what is time without it’s numbers to make day and night, then what do you have? I am calculated, yet, cryptic; with an open mind going in, there’s no way that what I may say is not comprehended.
It’s time for me to flourish in my purpose, as well. This is why I feel that my blog should be at the top of your subscription list. I understand the truths of what goes on when you clock out of work, and facing no one but yourself. Hear me out, so that you can see just like I am right now, that you are not alone.