Journal Entry # 45

I.D.K [Internally Dwell Knowledge]

Focusing on better moments within my imbalance life; coping with it all by praying, and less crying myself to sleep on moonlit nights.
I tenderly encapsulate it down to the skin of my fingertips; it’s excruciating to be this patient, only God can precisely fix.

My dreadful suffering genuinely feels like active viruses working desperately through my incorruptible body; although I’m developing an immune system that opposes this in the future, I’ll also neglect the potential negative. Even if it feels comparable to a probably.

My notable days has been indifferent, every possible move I carry out ends with sincere repentance; the optimal strategy in my eternal life is to adequately represent someone spiritually aligned. My intended purpose is to spread God’s word by practicing what I advise.

Though, the human, imperfect part of me loathe when those around act as if they’ll be hither for more than an undefeated season. These implements don’t exactly happen for no reason. 

Deciding to shift my mindset really it’s feel like an internal reset; the matrix of the mind suffers punishment within ourselves when we neglect our own thoughts. To me, another’s expressed opinion before your own is a cult…

Boy Mom*

My Greatest Gift on Earth+

Every precious day I fight valiantly.
Naturally encouraged by my gifted son,
And his precious inheritance;
Shedding that light, therefore isn’t presented 
I’m precisely conveying a significant namesake to him;
I don’t hesitate, by maternal heart, he is invariably my first place.
Is there another optimal form?
How can anyone else represent his eccentric mother?
There isn’t another, through me he was naturally born;
It isn’t a mystery that needs to be uncovered…

Journal Entry # 44-2

Telling a story can inevitably trigger many vivid memories. Although I don’t put the glory into the sorrow that was expected, it still hurts that they were many that tried to condemn me. I’ve been screening an intriguing movie within the realm of my dreams; urging me to focus on the past and future. I’ve grasped that what has established who I am today, surrendered me the position in of my life as the ruler.

Most of the wisdom I receive can be naïve, so I carefully pay attention to what I believe in; intuiting that certain beliefs can be disturbing. Prevailing sense has seemed to be scarce to the deserving. To think my peculiarity played any significance; right before my eyes I stumbled across the root of my anxiety and disadvantage…

Journal Entry # 43

Looking back at all of the essential tools, I was exposed to, earnestly trying to grasp lessons like I suppose to; Stumbling across prevailing wisdom and evident knowledge generously offers me hope now that I undoubtedly possess a creative point of view.

Being consciously aware that they're scars that have grown to be beauty marks, uncovering my eyes with absolute things that has seized my heart; nothing within me desires this to ever depart!

I'm graceful about each encounter because of every outcome; always leaving cliff hangers so the story will be never done.


On a prosperous journey toward a prolific breakthrough,
I'm feeling spiritually renewed;
I'm humbly craving the pivotal moment of intellectual clarity.
To be enlightened, passionately embodying the necessary.
My conscious mind and awakened spirit have opened up to harmonic frequencies elegantly expressing ultimate truth;
Confronting distinct realities, to appropriately recognize the unique root.
I'm tactfully establishing an eternal life;
Severely depleting the minor battles, to dearly spearhead the ;ultimate fight.

I'm building peace, breathing in, then out. Naturally allowing oppression to be released, including doubt;
My cerebral complexity wisely directs me to evolves daily, recognizing change as if it was dressed down plainly;
Ample time has been allotted to critically think, laying the foundation through mindful meditation, elevating on the brink.

Journal Entry No. Forty-One*

Keep going everyone exclaims; I wonder if my audience genuinely recognize the pain. My day is coming and its closer than I've predicted; absorbing things that'll encourage me to excel, instead of being ignorant.

Placing matters in another's hand doesn't sit comfortably with my spirit; no matter how many excuses or reasons, altogether, I don't want to discern it! I should just move out of bounds; Blocking out considerations of failures, because those exact thoughts could hold me down.

Pulling on a rope that holds my success on the other side, devotes strength to remove egotistic mannerisms to move forward without pride. I put myself in multiple dimensions, because I deserve spreading my sunshine with honorable intentions; My surroundings are often unusual; undeniably, the things; that's been; learnt from these foreign places feels trusting and mutual.


The above percentage is the amount of how many will understand…

I’m carefully gathering all the key elements within divine nature; considering every encounter as major.

My manner of connecting doesn’t impress the way its expected; the approach is thorough and magnetic!

Many possibilities have consistently stood before me, though, I nevertheless consider choices that frequently reflects negative anomalies…

I become flustered when speaking in first person; to me, the repetition of it for certain.
That doesn’t discourage the eternal will to keep going; it’s realized keenly that somewhere in this, I am profitably growing.

The direct vision can be accurately reflected – by heart am the vessel which delivers; the goal is inevitably lead by faithfully representing the first to willingly surrender!
Daintily picking my battles use to be rocky; right away, I efficiently managed to achieve lasting peace withing eternally.

Gathering thoughts, whilst focusing on anything but the arcane issues that drives me insane; sincerely, my passionate heart can handle a lot, but when betrayal is the root, many risk getting slain – I am not playing.

Emotionally, I’m exhausted at this chosen point; all I’ve sought to obtain was guarantees, not empty promises. I’ve dealt cards that has been played on me, and in that moment I understood I also hold responsibility honestly…

intimate one*

I found you, and I mean it!
I’m gratified because, I believed it was momentary;
Instantly I began crying…

What a beautiful reveal; I was overly anxious, now my spirit is still.

This was truly relieving;
Exploiting such a vulnerable space, showing my words genuinely retains meaning!


I want to communicate how I write, because in reverse, I could take on a sailor, any day or night! What’s wrong with being raw on what I believe to be honesty; when I soften it up, it seems that no one is listening to me!

I’m tired of being taken advantage of; why is it so hard to do right by the ones we love?
Inhaling the frustration, hoping it’ll go away when it’s exhaled; I’m distancing myself from negativity, I don’t care if I have to yell!

Journal Entry # 40


Gazing thoughtfully into a future I’m working to manifest.
Drawing out ambitious blueprints, graciously allowing my God some rest.
We can’t do it entirely by ourselves, we all need help; keeping in mind, that one must go by the facts and not how one may have felt!

I’m feeling undeniably worthy and procured; walking on unshakable faith is clearly understood!
Naturally possessing everlasting happiness can be rare; as long as one’s focus is attentive, one will continue being aware.

Punctuating key steps to follow what comes out of one’s mouth; confident and honesty will never cause you to doubt.
Oft-times, there are moments where I feel it’s not enough; Nevertheless, once I reflect, and recognize I’m capable of more, my strength becomes resilient even when it gets rough!

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