Journal Entry # 26*

What is my deal? I’m providing all good energy, yet, to others, the price of it is a steal!

Am I too nice, too lenient? Do you think it’s fair, even though I’m obedient?

Give me a moment – I’m talking to myself; you know what they say, “that’s not good for your health.”

Well, what I do? Why is there silence, will the answers I receive from my questions be of any use?

I can’t stress it enough! We are here to be used for good works; one shouldn’t abuse, because one is a jerk.

Going outside of the lines isn’t a feature I hold, and it’s a habit I choose not to break.

I’m opposed to repeating any of my mistakes.

It’s intriguing to watch one actually have the guts; it devours my stomach with disgust.

I can’t stress these things enough!

Being of use in good works was the only thing expected of us.

Continue to be useful, not useless; don’t stand in the way of another’s shot – be humble, your character is all you got!

Shower me with mercy so that grace flow when I speak…


Journal Entry # 25*

I fell into a deep slumber, whilst listening to an abundance of wisdom; I magnify Jesus’ name, because only he is the way to a true kingdom!

I’ve never been shy about His name or my love for Him. Many don’t understand, but I’m glad that I’m one of them!

I view my writings as prayer; I get deep into the thought, knowing that when I get lost in any trap within my mind, I know to always call on my Savior!

I ask now and anyone reading this – Shower us with mercy, so that grace can flow when sorrow makes us thirsty; with your guidance, I have no fear as I travel through my journey.

Amanda’s World*

“There’s a well in me…”

Genesis 1:28

Often I stumble down to a place that makes me dark; putting myself behind the prey that caused it from the start.

I stray from any form of manipulation; it causes me to feel confused with frustration.

Today, I retire from old guilt trips; I’m moving on to greater fellowships.

I’ve realized that support is replaceable; I understand that there’re more options than to lean on those who’d rather make a fool of you.

Devastation, embarrassment, and acceptance – these things have appeared in my life as a hinderance.

Exploiting it has opened my spirit, finding fruition within the problem.

Showing responsibility for my actions, to create better solutions to solve them.

Capturing the key idea of this conundrum inadmissibly, understanding where the roots begin; bellowing over indescribable emotions that I’m fighting within.

I’m confident this will also be well enough to come together; soon time will tell, until then, I’ll continue to apply the pressure!

Journal Entry # 24

I’m finally free to vocalize what I feel without fear; recounting my story with genuine, listening ears.

Unfolding every raw inequity; being honest in every flaw and complexity.

Finally! I’m on a fresh path placed by my Lord, thankfully! I’m releasing all sorrow in order to move forward peacefully.

You get what you put out; for me, that’ll never be doubt!

“Don’t change the intention; change how to fulfill the intention…”

Sarah Jakes-Roberts

Jordan Entry 23*

I want to do so many things that I get frustrated with the rate of my success; my actions are synonymous with the goals I set my mind on, yet every step I make feels disorganized, just a complete mess!

Beyond that, I still strive to pay closer attention to the lessons, and not the mistakes; recognizing that the blessing in it is because of my faith.

I dig deep to channel the visions I have from my point of view; looking for the words to describe my peculiarity, because my colours are of a different hue.

Being content in this space; Embracing the peace like it’s the last breath I can take – hoping to grow. Allowing my faith to break my fall whenever failure shows.

I looked into the mirror, and I demand integrity; I am completely fine with who I’m developing into. At this moment, I’ve finally had clarity.

Journal Entry # 22


why do I sit here and contemplate my differences?

hoping that my words are more than emphasis, but deliberate.

I’m capable of so much, and luck conceived none of it! Although I am extremely humble, I’m also confident, making it normal to make myself prominent.

only I can care for myself the way I do!

I would never guide myself into the wrong point of view.

I’m impressing a certain height of power, engaging in tasks, most wouldn’t have the courage to do; believe me, I may not be old, but I’m also not new –

There’s nothing in this world that will stress me into a casket; I am made whole and complete to be everlasting.

Journal Entry # 21


Feeling my spine bend with chills as my face swell with a unique smile; I’m flustered, because the sensation is indescribable – it’s been this way for a while.

It’s time for the big war, particularly a war that doesn’t keep score; do anyone believe in anything anymore?

My only mission has been to succeed, all while honoring the things that created me, and believe in; winning the battle without having to wear my soul thin.

I chose this path for myself, because other creativity to me feels intimidating; I can make sunlight to be bright, not dark, and in my days I’ve seen those very hearts. I often decide to stray from false acts of militating.


crying a Jordan river instead of tears

-wanting nothing but an eternity of years; to be more than just one aesthetic

I’m conceiving visions that are immense, mirroring ideas that are prophetic

-weathering the storm my mind begin experiencing; tirelessly giving all the glory [good or bad circumstances] to the King

walking through a door I choose to call serenity, clearing all the fog so that I can see – as plain as that sound, imagine your space being filled with love, turning your life completely around! I’m ecstatic, because this phase of placidity pulls me as if my energy was the magnet!

“Attitudes do more than show through. They sound through too!”

David J. Schwartz

The Gap in the Bridge*

exploring new paths with out a map; I’m experiencing a moment of relapse.

telling myself that this is normal; knowing damn well my behavior hasn’t been that formal.

my glands has released too much oxytocin; wanting nothing more than for time to go frozen.

what more can a person want, other than to be chosen?

my turn is coming really soon, so I will continue to humbly be patient until my life reflects a boon.

~ Europa