Europa's Space Of Poetry

I'm hurting inside 
Only a bit 
I just want more than a joyride 
I want to be a complete fit 
Putting the pride away 
Enjoying every moment each day 
Loving each other 
It’s a healthy vibration 
As a family we'll be great 
Mother and father 
Together  
More than my imagination 
I'm extremely scared 
Just cherish me for real 
Care the way I care 
Not connecting 
That wasn't the deal 
There was always going be affection 
That was very clear 
Confused most of the time 
I'm done pretending I'm fine 
Not receiving mutual feedback  
Because it's not always clear 
That's time I could never get back 
And that's what I sometimes fear 
Tell me what it is already 
Feels like I'm hanging by a thread 
This will no longer be fair to me  
Because that's one thing I dread 
Time tells everything 
That I understand 
Maybe nervousness of it has me jittery 
And maybe that was the plan